Inner Circle

20180929_124343 As we continue looking at the “Personal Formula” I live by, in seeking to maintain a God Balance, lets continue our subject of “Inner Circle”. As we have said, Jesus set the example, having his 70, his 12, and his 3. The Great Commission and also Paul’s admonition to the Corinthians confirm what Jesus set the example for. We are expected to follow Christ as teachers of the Kingdom of God.

“You have been believers so long now that you ought to be teaching others.” (Heb. 5:12a)

Our Formula: God Task + Inner Circle + Prayer + Simplicity = God Balance.

Who are the ones in your life, your priesthood, whom you influence in a way that Jesus DID? In the above picture I have a grandson in there somewhere. This is his first year of playing soccer, or any sports. Am I a fan of soccer? Not really, but I am a fan of my grandson, and he needs to know that. I want him to know that. I want all my kids, my family, to be a part of the Inner Circle I influence towards God.

And think about it… sometimes those we are the closest, are the hardest to be that light to because they know us best! They see us at our worst and best. They know what we really do, our true actions, our consistency, or lack there of. They know our flaws and imperfections. But we should all want to be that spiritual priest to our family. And that means you too , DADS.

Yes…in that rumble tumble of childhood, all those kids trying to kick that ball, I have a grandson, and hopefully he’s not the one being kicked. I have another grandson, whom I have given the name “Sky Hawk”, who also plays soccer, but he lives in Georgia. I’m still naming this grandson. I think “Story Teller” may be his name. He has such an imagination and loves creating stories. It flows out of him. But he must also learn to never be a liar, but a creator of good stories imparting wisdom and joy. There is a big difference between an honorable Story Teller, and a liar. Grandpa White Feather can help him understand such things.

But there is still much more to say on this subject. I’m afraid the Apostle Paul was not giving the Corinthians words of praise when he wrote the letter. He told them what they “OUGHT” to be doing. And he shared his desire to teach them deeper and more powerful things, but he could not! He desired to do so, but could not!

“There is much more we would like to say about this, but it is difficult to explain, especially since you are spiritually dull and don’t seem to listen. You have been believers so long now that you ought to be teaching others. INSTEAD, you need someone to teach you again the BASIC things about God’s word.” 

Wow…how sad. How would you feel if the Apostle Paul, or the Lord himself, said you were spiritually dull and do not listen? Wow. Not a good spiritual report card.

So…are we the teachers we ought to be? Do you see how adding this to the Formula is a very important part, of which Jesus set the example? All I’ve done is tried to analyze “what Jesus actually DID”. And then put those elements into a Formula that helps us follow what Jesus DID. There are many things, of course, that could be added. But it is my hope that these four basic elements produces those other things like a tree bearing fruit. As we try to reduce our Godwalking to the MOST SIMPLE elements, as part of the Formula is simplicity, a life flowing, a yoke not hard, a burden not heavy.

No one can say it better than Jesus, of course. He said it’s all about a life of godly LOVE.  He said that would produce every fruit a Christian should be bearing. No one can be more simple and deep at the same time, as the Lord Jesus Christ. He is the Master.

We continue our study of “The Formula”, and much is happening at Teepee in this fall season. More pictures coming soon. Continue meditating on your ministry to YOUR Inner Circle. Rise to the challenge! Add your God Task and Inner Circle together and see what you get? Do you have a godly balance of soaring and not flapping? Until the next time, this is Grandpa White Feather signing off. Continue the “Fight of No Fight”, and be blessed!

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The Formula – Part 3

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God Task + Inner Circle + Prayer + Simplicity = God Balance

“You have been believers so long now that you ought to be teaching others.” (Heb. 5:12a) Apostle Paul.

There are many ways of teaching.

It’s been a very busy week at “White Feather Neighborhood”! We have a new look! I’m afraid the color “white” was just too difficult to keep clean. Try as I did, it simply wasn’t working. And that is a message for our need of Christ! He is coming back for a people who’s garments are without spot or blemish in a very dirty world! What a challenging thought! Good luck trying to accomplish that on your own! Only the grace of God in response to the blood of his Son is going to keep us clean unto that day! Make sure we do not take that for granted! Appreciate!!! Lift up your praise and thanksgiving unto Him, or you’re nothing more than a spiritually spoiled brat! (Nuff said, I hope.)

But today’s message is about the second part of our formula, our “Inner Circle”. As you can see, my “God Task” kept me pretty busy and on track this week, as it normally does. Painting that whole Teepee is no small job. But in the midst of all that, what about people? That building is not a person. It has no soul. It has no eternity, but will burn up or rot away one day. Jesus is all about people! So if my God Task does not also include influencing people towards the Kingdom of God, then it is probably not a true God Task. It’s a me, mine, and I task.

Paul said we ought to reach a point of teaching others. Jesus gave the Great Commission of making “disciples” in all nations. None of us are excluded from these expectations, and it is part of God’s great design for keeping us on track! We all need to examine our personal Inner Circle, and I’m not talking about your circle of friends who “influence you”, I’m talking about those “YOU INFLUENCE”.

To narrow it down even further, only those you influence towards Christ! You may have those you are a bad influence on, and you may be pushing them away from Christ, not towards. If so, you need to correct this immediately! Blood on your hands! Do you believe?

So…take a little time here. Make some list of your Inner Circles. Jesus had his 70, his 12, and even his 3. He plainly set the example. This is what Jesus DID. Your numbers may be different. That part doesn’t matter. But as you examine your personal Inner Circles, isolate the ones you are actually influencing into the Kingdom of God. We teach in many ways, but whatever your method is, it should be very plain you are a disciple of Christ, and you disciple others in Christ. This is what Jesus calls “Church”! It’s not about a building. It’s about us walking in unity with our Lord. If you’re not discipling in some form, you’re not having Church according to the way Jesus DID.

I hope to say more on this before we move to the next part of the Formula. But for now, in order for this Formula to work, you must take time to meditate, study, examine your performance in this area. We are all called to minister in some way to some one, and probably several someones. Who are those you can honestly say before God, I am a teacher unto them. I am a disciple who disciples.

Once you realize the magnitude of being a spiritual father or mother to someone, you will also realize the godly balance it will influence in your own living. So work on those lists! This is not a short article. It includes an assignment. I’m keeping the words short so you will hopefully do the assignment. The devil will try to keep you from it. Don’t let him win. It’s not just about YOU. The souls of others hang in the balance. Think about the people who are attached to the names you write down. I do hope there are at least a few names, but if not, then your life is definitely out of balance and mostly about YOU. YOU can change that! Let the only blood on your hands that day be the blood of Jesus! Selah.

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The Formula

2711 Eventually the truth comes out. Sometimes it may seem to come out too late, but when it does, the “fakers” are revealed, the liars are shamed, and the faithful are grateful they hung on to TRUTH!

If you’re familiar with the show “Singing in the Rain”, you know a very untalented lady was getting away with fooling everyone until… until… until silent movies were no longer silent! At that point her lack of true talent became more and more difficult to hide, and the person who should have been getting the credit, eventually became a true star. Until then, the “faker” was stealing from her! She grew more and more bold in her shameful pride, taking advantage of an honest and good hearted person, and seeming to feel no guilt about it. I wonder how often this happens? I don’t know, but I know it happens too much.

Sad to say, politics seems to be the devil’s playground for this very thing. But I don’t write about politics, unless it’s the government of the Kingdom of God, and today I want to begin getting into my personal formula for finding God Balance and staying God Centered. You see, the truth eventually comes out, and all those Churches who have twisted what Jesus was about, won’t be able to hide it for long. More is being revealed every day.

So we must look at WDJD. (What Jesus actually did.) The example he gave us. When I did this, I came up with a few things I have put into my own personal formula for spiritual balance, and perhaps it can help you too? You might even have something to add. Please feel free to share.

So…my formula goes something like this:

God Task + Inner Circle + Prayer + Simplicity = Balance and Flow… i.e. True Surrender. (The Fight of “No Fight”).

Please note, this may look like a “do list” of “7” things, but it’s really only “4”.

God Task + Inner Circle + Prayer + Simplicity =.

Remember, we’re talking about how to find and maintain a God pleasing “Balance”. Tonight we take a quick look at the first item in the formula, your “God Task”. Do you even know what it is? Can you hear the voice of God to know your personal task? Do you care? Consider how if you know what your personal “Task / Vision” is, how that begins to bring focus and order to your life, if you do it correctly! If you simply add it to an already overly busy list of events and chores, it can bring more chaos and stress!

There are several things to consider here. First of all, can you hear that voice? If we were talking face to face, would you be able to tell me the personal “priority” God has been laying on your heart? And I don’t mean something like I need to pray more. This is about your “function” in the body of Christ. This is about the “thumb” being about doing the work of the thumb. If you say “pray more”, then that means you are called to be a Prayer Warrior and should have a prayer ministry. We’re talking this is your ministry from God. It is the ministry of the thumb to be the thumb, and it’s not the same as what the neck does. The body of Christ has an assignment. Are we performing our “specific” part?

When I was considering how I find balance in my own life, and comparing it to Jesus, I know I’m very much a “vision” sort of guy. Give me the big picture, Lord, and let me go for it! Let it set me on fire and consume me! Let it force everything else in my life to orbit around it, not the other way around. I want everything to orbit around my “God Task”, not try to fit my God Task into an already over crowded agenda. And I see the same in what Jesus DID. He knew his God-given task, and it centered Him.

I’d like to spend a little time on this first element of the Formula. I’d like to share a few things about the “Teepee” in my life. In the meantime, think about what your personal God Task is? That one thing that stands out above everything else. If you’re honest with yourself, do you know what it is? If so, does your life orbit around your assignment from God? If you don’t know what it is…why not? Too busy? A sure sign of an out-of-balance life. Why continue in shallowness and complexity when you can have simplicity and depth? A good first step in the right direction is honestly asking God…“Lord, is there something special you want me to do?” Is there a VISION I am failing?

If done correctly, your God Task will bring peace, joy, serenity, and satisfaction to your daily living. It will give you a fire-burning reason to get out of bed every day, even when you don’t feel like it. Especially when you don’t feel like it. So says Grandpa White Feather. More soon. Hope you enjoy.

Peace we have; and peace we teach.

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“God Balance”

402894471-free-wind-wallpapers We’re talking about “Surrender” because so many Christians have failed to enter “Rest” and are still “Fighting”. Fighting to keep their head above water. Fighting with the cares of this life. Fighting to prove themself when we’re supposed to be proving God! Except a seed fall to the ground and die, it abides alone. And let that seed be carried by the Wind.

I surrender all, the song says. So why am I still fighting?

Hebrews chapter four speaks of a rest available to us all. A rest connected to the 7th Day when God ceased from all “His” work. He said, It is finished, it is good, and he entered rest. That rest is available to us when we truly surrender, cease from our own works and enter His. We enter His finished work, and we do His work in our life, not our own.

When Jesus said, “It is finished!” If your faith is strong enough, and your love for God great enough, the cares of this world become simply more water off a duck’s back. It’s not that you won’t feel emotions, but we can also have control of those emotions, because no matter what, we know God has a plan for us.

H-O-W-E-V-E-R… If God’s will and God’s plan is not enough for you… T-H-E-N… enter stress, anxiety, lust, envy, fighting, struggle, rat race, fear, etc. etc, etc.. Your life will always be out of balance because like floating on water, there needs to be a surrender.

This world will always disrupt your peace unless you have learned to lay down your own will and flow with the Father. Cease from your own works and rest in God. For the one who has died with Christ, no matter what I wake up to each day, even if it be WWIII has suddenly broke out, nothing changes for me! The desire of my heart is to find God’s will in this day. Not yesterday or tomorrow, but today. And be the Godwalker. Flow in that. Stay in faith, in Spirit, in peace and joy. Can it really be that simple?

Simple yes, but also very deep.

Have we really thought deeply about what Jesus taught? How is it we have read his words and heard his words a thousand times and still don’t get it? Because his words are simple and deep! (And we’re not paying attention.)

Our only explanation for our lack of understanding is we’re not paying attention. We read the Beatitudes and have pictures of pretty butterflies flirting about from flower to flower when that message is actually about losing our own identity and being swallowed up in his! It is a type of death, not dancing butterflies! And it leads to true joy.

Here is a quote, I think from Bo Lozoff: “The cause of all our personal problems, and nearly all the problems of the entire planet, can be summed up in a single sentence: Human life is very deep, and our dominate lifestyle is not.”

Wow…that is what I see in so many people. So busy running here and there trying to grab the golden ring, that they read the Beatitudes and praise the wisdom and beauty of it all while never realizing it’s speaking of their death to flesh! They hear those words “Blessed” at the start of each verse and that is as deep as their brain goes! They claim to love the ocean but they never leave shallow waters! Do they not even realize the lie they’re living? Evidently not.

Mister Rogers, an ordained minister who dared to have a “serious” television show for children, said this: “I feel so strongly that deep and simple are far more essential than shallow and complex.” The evidence seems to support that Mister Rogers lived what he spoke. He was a true believer.

I have dared attempt putting together a “spiritual formula” for finding our “God Balance” after deep thought about the living example of Christ. In other words, WDJD? (What DID Jesus do?) I compare this formula to a jigsaw puzzle. The formula is not complete without all the pieces.

True surrender, a true love for the things of God, is one piece of this puzzle. If there has not been a true DEATH, then how can there be a true resurrection into a newness of life?

Unless the seed falls to the ground and dies…it abides alone…and not only that…but how can it be happy in simplicity? Most struggle is the result of too much complexity we invited in because we wanted too many things too quickly. Or things we would be better off without. So how can we look at the piece of the puzzle known as “simplicity”, how can we get that piece in place if we constantly cause our life to be more and more complicated?

We have barely begun to teach this subject of the “God Balance”: How to find it and love it. I feel led to continue short teachings given more frequently. But if we’re paying attention, if we’re thinking deeply, we should be pondering what did Jesus do that enabled him to walk in such a God Balance as he said was also available to us? A few things make up that formula. I believe simplicity is one of the things the formula will produce. Simplicity is not part of the formula itself.

Lifestyle habits. Of course you’re thinking prayer. Yes, but…perhaps if you have a little bigger picture of a few more pieces, perhaps the prayers will come easier, than they do when our vision is only of shallow waters. Deep calleth unto deep. Follow your heart into deeper waters. There is a rest waiting for us there.

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The Fight of “No Fight”

bible-sword-of-the-spirit “Proper Balance” – Continued.

Why are you fighting? 

I thought you surrendered?

You will never understand the “Balance of God” if you don’t actually understand “Surrender”. You say, but of course I understand what it means to surrender.  Do you? Your actions, and your lifestyle say otherwise. We can deny them all we want, but they prove us guilty. It takes real skill, real training, real changing, real transforming, real power from God to master “The Fight of No Fight”. But once you do, the world becomes your harvest field. So much opportunity! The white path, fields white unto harvest!

Our Bible speaks of being a warrior. It speaks of a battle. It speaks of fighting. It speaks of swords, shields, armor, battlefields, but how are these battles fought? What kind of warrior is God creating?

God is creating a warrior, a son, a priest, a disciple, a student, a child who understands the power of God, and how the universe actually works. First of all, we have to get past what we see with our eyes. Now just think about that one challenge alone. How hard is it for us to look not at what is seen…but focus on the invisible? This warrior fights with a blindfold over his eyes! He fights from his heart and his spirit! He fights from what God tells him is true! He learns to sense with his soul, and to “surrender” completely to the will of God, whatever that means.

For me today, I’m feeling led to change-up the normal way of this site for however long God leads me to do so. Our subject is the “God Balance”. Until God leads me otherwise, expect short but “regular” messages shot out, perhaps even almost daily. I hope you catch them all.

But for today… think about this “Fight of No Fight”. And think about the challenge of fighting blindfolded. Think about what true surrender means, and even though 100% surrender may be impossible for me, if I am honest with myself, where would I judge my surrender level to be? Do I even know what the “God Balance Surrender” looks like?

One last thought, we are “engaged” to be married to Christ. The “marriage” has not happened yet. Marriage is about becoming ONE with someone because of a great LOVE you have for that person. Like a river becoming one with the ocean, the river loses its identity into the greater. Are you ready to lose YOUR identity? Are you ready to take the last name of another? Have you surrendered? Then why the fight?

God has an “identity” meant for you. It is an identity in harmony with his son. This person has great balance, peace, joy, love, simplicity, and serenity. Are you ready to learn to be that person? For if we are not even willing to learn, if we are not even willing to try, then what kind of love, what kind of engagement is this? It is not an engagement likely leading to the marriage.

Jesus is coming back for a Bride without spot or blemish, washed in his blood, and totally in love with Him, and His ways. May God’s Holy Spirit enable us to —- Seek first the Kingdom of God.

Practice His Presence this day, and flow. Don’t flap. SOAR. Surrender to the powerful Wind currents of God’s eternal soul. Let Him breathe on you, all day long.

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Proper Balance

20171202_173614 Hi! Grandpa White Feather here. It all starts with the proper foundation. Jesus, the Master Carpenter and High Priest after the order of Melchizedek, laid the perfect foundation for his Church. This foundation is perfectly square and perfectly level. This foundation is perfect, but then man began building upon it.

Most of this blog site has been about my spiritual journey of leaving the modern American Church in search of something closer to what Jesus actually did, because we have drifted so far from the original pattern. Our modern Church is more like a big business than our Father’s house. Jesus came revealing to us the “Father”. The Church he birthed is a type of the Father’s House, but we have turned it into a den of thieves and every other worldly way. Is this my Father’s House?

We have spoke much of these things in earlier articles. We have taken this spiritual journey together, and it is still there for anyone to study. I started this blog as a personal tool, so I could use it as I personally teach others. It’s as a text book for me. So whether anyone reads this site or not, it is still very useful in my personal teachings with people. I will continue growing it until there is no need to grow anymore.

So… it’s time to begin asking some new questions. The answers to our previous questions have brought us to a place more perfectly “square” and “level”. We have gotten back closer to what Jesus actually did. So where do we go from here? With our new knowledge, what new light does it shine on every aspect of our spiritual life and journey? What kind of powerful life can we have in Christ as a result of the new knowledge we possess? It’s time to ask those questions and pioneer our new frontier. As always, our goal is a life that soars more, and flaps less…i.e. supernatural.

As I talked to God about this, it seemed to me that finding our proper balance is such an important first step. We all talk about seeking balance in our life. We all recognize how difficult that can be in our modern lifestyle. If I can help even one person, including myself, find that proper balance of God, then I have gained a great treasure. If there is a way of maintaining spiritual balance, so much so that the world can no longer rock your boat, disturb your peace, confuse your passion and purpose, then we have gained a great treasure, and become a rich person. We become rich in the true riches of eternity.

Still to this day I enjoy the pleasure of riding a bike down a beautiful country road. If I can find a road where traffic is slow and light, and the street has ample room, riding a bike is a great delight. As a young man growing up in the country, my bike was my freedom before I was old enough to drive. I rode for many many miles, but I also remember how hard it was in the beginning, to get the balance of the thing. Not much true forward motion and freedom was achieved until I mastered that balance.

It’s really strange how easy it is to ride a bike once you get the hang of it. How does something go from very difficult, even dangerous, to piece-of-cake-easy so suddenly? It is a mystery to me, but suddenly you’re doing it, and you never forget how to ride a bike. Is that not true? Balance can open such pleasures and joy for us. It is no wonder that mankind constantly seeks that perfect balance, as elusive as it may seem to be. But if anyone knows how to master it, it is our Lord Jesus Christ. If anyone knows how to bring square and level to our lifestyle, it’s the Master Spiritual Carpenter from Galilee.

The things we will speak of may not sound easy at first, but like learning to ride that bike, if God says this is the way, you can trust he knows what he is talking about. But do we really trust him? Are we ready to let him take the training wheels off, start pedaling that bike with his hand keeping us steady, but knowing at some point he is going to let go… so we can learn…so we can do…so we can be free and soar? Do we really believe? Have we really accepted Christ as the truth, the way, and the life? Because this will test if you have or not.

When I read scripture, I hear Jesus speaking of a life simple and serene. He also spoke of a “depth”. However, many people today are lost in the shallow and complex as they chase material things that will never satisfy, only enslave. As a young man I fell into many of those same traps. I became the enslaved until I finally began realizing how this kept happening to me. How I wish I could have read teachings of this sort at that time. I’m sure I would have still made some of the same mistakes, but I would have “woke up” sooner, and found a proper balance quicker. My life could have been free and flowing much sooner than it was. I could have been walking the white path much sooner.

Of course we must know all this is somehow connected to out spirit, not our flesh. Jesus knew this way. Our gut tells us this is true and yet we fail to ride that bike, until we finally grow sick of rotten fruit and begin hungering after the foods of God. Here is what our Bible tells us the fruit of God produces in us:

“But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace,…” Galatians 5:22a

And those are just the first three! There are nine of them, but some of the others may sound hard? Do we trust our Father? Will we learn such a balance that begins with love, joy, and peace? The choice is yours, but God does take note of our actions.

This is where our path now goes. Now that we have a more solid foundation getting back to what Jesus did, now we stay with this same path. We do not change to another horse or another path. This one has brought us to very good places. It is a true path. Why would we change now? No! We must see where this goes, for it is a path without end, an eternal path leading to eternal places, and if we are wise, that is the journey every man seeks.

However, if you have not read the journey thus far, and you have a very out of square and unlevel perspective concerning the House/Family of our Father, then these future teachings will likely not last for you. The climb may be too steep and high. You will have no strength for it. Do the work of a proper builder, and get that foundation right. It’s all there for you. Just go back to what Jesus actually did.

Our next lesson will continue this question of proper balance, how to find and maintain it. It doesn’t come in one easy answer. There are a few pieces to this puzzle. But once you have all the proper pieces and put them in place, guess what? Up pops a beautiful picture!

Have you ever noticed how even just one piece missing from a jigsaw puzzle seems to ruin the whole thing? Well… this is one puzzle well worth getting all the pieces to. We continue our journey. Our path led to a certain mountain range and we continue the climb. We have the strength for it. We will not stop until we know the whole land, possess every peak, enjoy every view. The good Lord is willing, and so are we.

This message has been brought to you by Grandpa White Feather, and “Fellowship of the White Path”.

20180829_171204 At age 62, I built this teepee with my own two hands, simple and serene. Peace we have, and peace we teach.

“Who Am I?”

20180811_135130           What does it all mean? – Part 4

“From the personal Journal of Grandpa White Feather”

8-17-18> I’ve always been this way. Because I took God very seriously at a young age, I’ve always been able to live life very unseriously.

Life for me has been an adventure. I’ve taken risks. I’ve broken this world’s “rules for success” over and over again in my pursuit of God, but yet somehow found great joy, peace, and fulfillment. My marriage is awesome and we somehow raised five great kids. But I’m still breaking rules and adventuring with God even right now, because I’ve always taken God and his Word very seriously. And I need to add this, what is adventure if it does not occasionally scare you? Must not be much of an adventure.

I’m the guy who all my life has taken some of my vacation time to get away from everyone and seek God. That may not sound like your kind of vacation, and for most, it would not be. I’ve done it camping at “The Dunes” in northern Indiana many times. I’ve done it on top of Mount Mitchell North Carolina at least 3 times. I’ve done it in New York City 3 times. I even visited the church pastored by David Wilkerson while there. I’ve done it at the Black Hills of South Dakota, even from Harney’s Peak, twice. I’ve done it without leaving home I don’t know how many times. I’ve journaled every day, talking to God, for the past twenty years.

I’ve experienced many churches over my 62 years. Everything from Holiness to Baptist to Pentecostal.  I tried to fit in, was even ordained in one, was offered to be ordained in another, but in the end left every one of them because I did not fit their vision of things. So either there is something wrong with me, or I simply have an appetite different.

At age 61 I went searching for the “Simplicity of Christ”, and I found a Table! I believe I found Revelation 3:20, that goes all the way back to Exodus 24:11, and probably even into the Garden of Eden itself… The Lord’s Table!

Even on the day of his betrayal, the day of preparation for Passover, he did not take his close spiritual family to a Temple, but to a Table, His Table. I have always felt like a person of simplicity in a world where church has become complex. They say in today’s world you cannot run a church without also knowing how to run a business. Sooner or later I’ve always left, and now I have a Tipi. (Of all things.) And its done nothing but cost me money, paid me nothing in monetary terms. But oh what a delight it is to me, oh His Presence I have felt, and God keeps providing. There has been no shish-boom-bah there, but the Wind, great peace, and a small still voice hard to hear in all the shish-boom-bah.

So last night I shared with a good friend, still in the last church I left, what I believe to be a pearl of great price, a revelation of “The Lord’s Table”. The shift from Temple to Table. A simplicity. And then I got scared. My head started asking questions like: How can it be that everyone else seems to have missed this? How can I be the only one, or the first to see? Surely I must be wrong. What if modern church is right? What if I’m misleading people? What if I mislead one of my best friends, or those who read this site?

Now I know I’m not the ONLY one. BUT… I seem to be the only one in my circles. And I don’t know how few our numbers really are. I know there is some kind of a movement happening, but in all my blogging so far, no one in my area seems to have popped up saying we’re over here! Can we join you? Or will you join us? (Know what I mean?)

So… I started playing back in my mind the journey and study that brought me here. I repeated quotes from early church fathers I’ve read concerning how the Lord’s Supper was done in their time. I looked again at the Bible description of the early church in Acts 2 and Paul’s description in First Corinthians 11. I rehearsed what I studied in early church history, where Polycarp, and the Asia Minor churches begin standing against the Bishop of Rome, because of changes he wants to make to the Easter weekend, because a thing we now call “Lent” seemed to be instituted. Big changes were being made in the way the Apostles all taught to observe the Lord’s Supper and the Christian Passover.

I remembered how the battle raged spiritually for many years, until a Roman Emperor named Constantine, claiming to be a Christian, but was obviously very CARNAL if Christian at all, was given great influence in the church, and things were never the same in the church again! I remembered what the church became! Proving the foolish choices of that time! Did we ever really go back and make things right?

I looked at the complexity of most modern churches today. I did not see the simplicity or the fellowship of the Lord’s Table. I saw complex Temples with “programs” of strategy more than prayer and sacrifice. Programs using worldly methods, like a business, more than simply waiting on the Lord. Name tag machines, stage lights, expensive budgets, shish-boom-bah, user friendly like the church of Constantine, coming to Christ for worldly benefits or emotional hype, not true conversion and sacrifice of self and sinful ways. And I realized whether scared or not, I simply could not stay silent, or go back to that way. I already tried too many times. And now, I have seen too much.

And I also realized, all the other teachers of God’s Word are still out there. All the other churches are still out there. No one is being forced to listen to me. I’m simply one voice out there offering something different, like a different restaurant for those of a different appetite, like me. The Lord will add to this movement if it be truly of Him. If there be a 2nd Reformation at hand. We force no one to come, no one to stay, we don’t even believe in a Membership role, a salary, or pass a plate. Part of our simplicity is people are free to come and go as much as they like, and I am open for church 24/7, or as much as my body allows. Our schedule is very flexible and even individual to a point. We seek for God to order our steps.

What I’m teaching is available for anyone to discredit if it be not the Word of God. I’m an open book not seeking to deceive or manipulate. I don’t ask for money. As a matter of fact, we don’t believe tithing is even a part of the New Covenant in Christ! He who gives more (percentage wise), will be blessed more. He who gives less is blessed less. But God is more than fair in all of it, and the leader of it. A message on tithing would have been somewhat meaningless in the early church, when they considered all their belongings common. I don’t think anyone but a Jew still under the law was even thinking in terms of a 10 percent. It was all about Loving Upward and Loving Outward.

Loving upward, and in the power of that loving outward also. That’s how Jesus explained the law in the two great Commandments. That is the laws God has given us. Even in our definition of sin. Do nothing that would cause your brother or sister to stumble. So are we perfect? No. But do we desire to be? Does God’s love put that desire in us? Yes! So be obedient to what God tells you to give. Give it to what God tells you to. And don’t forget the poor.

I don’t know why I’m seeing this different kind of church based on simplicity and the Lord’s Table. I don’t know why there are not thousands also seeing it? But try as I may, I don’t see this wrong. I see the modern church wrong, and I have chosen to stay with the exiles. I have felt led to offer an Exile Restaurant of spiritual food from an Exile Menu. For you see, we exiles, as in Exodus, have our eyes set more on tents than we do mansions. More on simplicity than we do complexity. More on a Table than we do a Temple. We have a taste for a different menu, perhaps locust and wild honey! It’s just where the appetite in me, takes me.

We don’t like it when a Pastor gets up and talks about Jesus not having a place to lay his head, but in the next breath promotes the Harley Davis motorcycle ride the men are having the very next weekend. That leaves a bad taste in my mouth. Not the dish I came to church to eat. Sure, I’d like a Harley too! But…that’s a lot of money, and I’ve got more important things to do. I don’t need that temptation, distraction, thrown at me. And especially not in the same breath about the simplicity of Christ!

So after “the fear”, the doubt, knowing I’m not that smart, how do I find myself seeing these things while everyone else says I’m “off track”. I began writing my feelings, and this is my journal writings of these things. Set your affections on things above, not on things of this earth. Lay not up for yourself treasures upon earth….but lay for yourselves treasures in heaven …. For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.

So what do you do when the advice of the “Many Counselors” seem to be against you? And those counselors are the same ones who find no problem with Harleys verses Homelessness in the same breath. What do you do when 20 doctors are saying give the patient this treatment before he dies, and you’re the only doctor saying, No, give him this treatment before he dies? Did not all these Bible characters experience the same thing from the experts of their time?

Noah, Abraham, Joseph, Moses, Samuel, David, Elijah, Elisha, Daniel and his friends, Isaiah, Jeremiah, Ezekiel, the minor prophets, John the Baptist, JESUS, all the Apostles, Polycarp, early church fathers, Asia Minor churches, Martin Luther, and how many others could be named? Revivals are happening in poor places around the world, places of simplicity, but not in America. We have asked the question over and over, and to that our experts provide another program, and shove more money at it.

Here’s the thing, it’s hard to argue against the information I have accumulated. I have seen first hand the power of this message, and that is what has scared me. I know how much this can affect people, and I don’t want to steer people wrong, but if the king were not so naked, if the king actually had clothes, then this message would not be so powerful! But because this modern king has no clothes, it’s very hard for him to defend himself, and this has given rise to people like…me. Of which I know I’m not the only one, but I wish I could find some others. Whether I do or not, this message must still go forth, and perhaps one day there will be others in this area, and those who are yet to follow will not find it quite so scary.

I have always been this way. Taking God’s Word more seriously than this present world itself. I know this life is but a vapor, this sets me free to break man made rules and adventure with God. It has been my way for 60 years. Take a walk on the wild side? This is Tent Life. It’s simple. It moves with God. It feels good to walk with God. For me, it’s that simple. And for this, I need a tent, not a mansion, or a Harley. The Passover meal was immediately followed by Tent Life for the Egypt enslaved Jews. Now that I’m in the Promised Land, I still prefer a spiritual tent.

Our Lord has many Tables. But some he likes more than others. And some tables he is near to leaving. Some he has already left. And some he was never there to begin with.

So after all this a great peace settled in, because, yes, it is a fearful thing to step out against what appears to be God’s church, even as it blasts the music of Micheal Jackson’s “Thriller” to the neighborhood. That which claims to be God’s church. How strange. Jesus did not use flashy things to fish for men. Evidently Jesus didn’t know much about fishing, and neither do I. I’m a simple teacher, who prays daily that if I be wrong, oh Lord, please let it be known. And in all this, a great peace has come.

Yesterday I sat outside my Tipi, under a shade tree, in a cool breeze, drinking black coffee and thinking white thoughts, such as these. Today, I share such thoughts with you. More to be treasured than silver and gold, the still small voice of our Lord.

I was surprised to find this year, that evidently I have a green thumb. Our garden has been a great delight. May God’s garden be, in each of us.