This journey has taken a lot out of me… but also put even more in. I somewhat resent the fact I have had to do all this research myself, and found no help from those who are supposed to be our leaders and experts. Those who have diplomas hanging on their wall. Those who are financially supported so they can be “full-time” in the ministry, with no secular job constantly draining them. They taught me very little concerning early Church fathers.
My path has not been perfect. I made some mistakes along the way, had to do a correction or two as I discovered more correct information, and felt a little stupid, but considering I’ve had very little help in digging these things out, I’m pretty happy with how well we have done. The Holy Spirit has been my constant guide, and very long-suffering, patient teacher. He is everything Jesus said.
But now I am at the “Big Question”. Now that I have a much bigger picture than I had before, “What does it all mean?” What is the effect of all this on me? How has this changed me? What will my walk with Christ be like from this day forward?
Let me say this: My body may be in America, but my heart is in the Kingdom of God. Every year Americans celebrate January 1st, New Years Day. But the change in me is so deep that New Years for me has become Nissan the 14th. I will start every year with my Lord’s Passover Meal, and I will start my every year thinking about unleavened bread, desert tents, a cloud and pillar of fire overhead, and pray to live in more perfect love, joy, and peace in my Lord each year. This is how my years will start from this day forward, as far as the power be in me to perform, but this is just the tip of the iceberg. This change goes so very deep. In order to fully explain I must go back to the beginning of my journey. And this blog site confirms that God started here with me, if one should check the early writings.
My journey started with God asking Adam to be the caretaker of a garden that did not seem to need care, because it was perfect. Think about it.
Early in my journey God began speaking to me about “proper table setting”. At that time the Lord’s Supper, Passover meal, sun-worship, short-forming God’s Word, none of these things were even in my mind. I simply understood that at some point, Adam had begun to love Eve more than God, and give her will first place in his life. I began seeing how this disrupted the “Table Setting” in the perfect garden, and began inviting the devil to God’s table, just as he was at the Lord’s Supper.
We all know he showed up. Eve was deceived and Adam lost the garden he had been put in charge of. Then I realized this was a picture of man being put in charge of God’s “Church”. God giving man a second chance. And the first question that came to me was, how well has Adam done with God’s Church, concerning EVE? If history repeats, because the nature of man never changes, how well has today’s Adam done with the Church Garden God has given him? Especially concerning EVE? This is where it all started for me, and then seemed to end at the Lord’s Supper, after a journey through a few other things in between. The Lord’s Supper became like a master key unlocking so much understanding. Until then, I felt lost in an ancient maze of very tangled webs.
I could never have predicted this beginning point, and I also never would have predicted where it was going. From Eve to Passover? And all this has to do with a TABLE? A TABLE God loves to sit at with us, except the setting is all wrong, and God is near to leaving, just as he did Jerusalem in Ezekiel 8?! How’s that for a Big Picture?
I’m very contemplative and reflective today. I’ve been locked in my cave for two days and now entering day three, but I’m about to finally leave. As I spoke of crossing a line a few articles back, then I finally got to have an open and honest conversation with a very close friend, and now I’m at a point of being able to SUM IT ALL UP. I want to do it right, because it has come to mean EVERYTHING to me. So I BEGIN these articles.
I’m about to head to my tipi for the day. I’m still locked away in my cave in Indianapolis at this moment, but the sound of wind in the trees is finally calling me, and God says “Go”. I have yet very much work to do on this place of spiritual get away. But I will not hurry. I will not lose my peace. I will soar more and flap less. God has the timetable on all these things. Perhaps there is help coming I know not of? I sit at that table with God, in perfect peace.
I started my new year with God at the Passover Meal, this year, even though I did not yet realize how big a thing I was tapping into. There was no “bunny” at my table, unless he was to be eaten! I’m so glad I did, even though it was such a feeble effort, like a baby’s first steps. God says do not despise the day of small beginnings. This is the beginning of my best years yet. I have that peace.
So…these articles are sharing the conclusions I have drawn, and the changes this new light has CAUSED in me. I hope you are interested. Tell a friend. These may be the most important articles I have written yet.
I can say this, I see a TABLE. I see a TABLE SETTING. And I see GOD sitting at that TABLE. (WOW.)
He wants to sup with me. He wants to sup with his people. And this TABLE should not be a place in which the devil feels at home! We are the Church wherever we go, and we should be a proper Table Setting. We need to show the world the real Jesus Christ. We are priest of that Table. We stand in the gap between lost man and a place called hell. A place called hell. This is no small thing. There is no greater CALL.
The Passover Meal was the beginning of “Tent Life” for the Children of Israel. I believe they were meant to take what they learned in the wilderness, into the Promised Land. But instead, many of them forgot what it meant to “move with the cloud”, and settled both physically and spiritually into “homes”, even “mansions”, that did not move with God. Personally? I’m just passing through here. May I never leave my Tent Life matrix. May I always know when the cloud is moving, and like a turtle who’s home is on his back, stay with God! Be the Godwalker, an Enoch people. Those who’s Table Setting pleases God.
Definitely to be continued.